Monday, April 14, 2008
The Death Test
Since I was invited to join this blog, I've been reluctant to post or to dwell too long reading these entries. Not because they're not fascinating -- but because I'm realizing that I'm sick to death of death.
I don't like to pick it apart as an academic subject, I can't stomach most artistic takes on it (movies, books, TV, theater -- but especially movies); in general, I can't treat it impartially, as if it were somehow separate from me, as a thing to dissect and ponder.
And I'm wondering, is this because of my personal experiences with death? Am I less objective, less impartially curious, because I've just been too close (as a witness, not a participant) to the dying process? Can I ever connect to it again in a way that is observational -- and somewhat aesthetically enjoyable?
So, I'm interested to know the personal death histories of this particular Death Squad. A sort of Death Purity test, if you will. Who has:
...had an acquaintance (not-close friend) or distant relative die?
...had a close friend or relative die?
...had someone in their immediate family (sibling, parent, grandparent) die?
...been to a funeral or funerals? If so, how many?
...watched somebody die?
...been on the verge of death themselves?
Thanks in advance for your answers.